Mommy Thoughts...

The summer started out slow but now I feel as though it's speeding by. There were so many unknowns at the beginning of the summer, mostly with the Mr.'s job. But now that we know where he will be working and his schedule it's made things speed up. Also, since I started teaching summer school I feel like my summer is speeding away from me because I'm away from my babies for 5 hours a day. I'm trying to soak up every minute with them. 

It's been a simple summer and I'm okay with that. Our children are little and enjoy being at home with their beds and toys. I've enjoyed playing with TJH while the girls nap and teaching him some of the basics, like his ABC's, colors, and numbers. And it's been so fun to see the girls grow this summer...crawling, pulling up and babbling a ton. My favorite is when all three play together. 

As I gear up for my 6th year of teaching I'm excited, nervous and sad all at the same time. I can't wait to meet my new class and really work hard with them all year. I always get a little nervous that I'll be able to do everything I want/need to do with my students. And of course I'm so sad to leave my babies at home to go to work. But working makes my evenings, weekends and holidays super special. I pray often that the time I have with my babies that I'm patient and kind. We aren't guaranteed tomorrow and I need to show them I love them and treat them like precious gifts. 

To be honest, I'm a little nervous how our lives are going to change with both the Mr. and I working at the same time. We've been blessed since before TJH was born for the Mr. to be home with us and the babies. I'm worried about how TJH will be...he's had one of us home with him most of his life. I'm sad I'll/Mr. will miss out on big moments with the girls. I'm really trying to preplan things like cooking, cleaning, packing lunches and such. I know my children will be well taken care of while we are working. I know they will be loved, fed and played with a lot. I'm just sad it won't be me or the Mr. 

So, for the next two and half weeks I'm going to enjoy being home with my babies and having the Mr. home with us. I'm going to soak up every moment...even the tough ones. :) 

Simple Moments

I love how one little picture can capture a moment, a person, or an event.

 

I posted this picture yesterday on Instagram and it made me smile so much and I hope that it brought a smile to my friends and families faces. :)

 

This little boy brings the most happiness I've ever expereicned in my entire life. I can't even express how he makes me feel all the time. He's been so paitent with me in these past couple of weeks. I feel like the WORST mommy ever to him, and I know everyone has told me that he won't remember. But I still feel awful. I'm so glad he's so forgiving. And I will make it up to him. I have enjoyed the moments that he's been extra snugglying with me. It's like he knows I need them. :)

 

I'm so glad he enjoys the simple things in life and I hope that the Mr. and I can instill that in him forever. Our evenings are filled with simple things these days. I love him, our simple evenings and all the simple moments.

 

I know things are going to quickly change for me, this sweet boy and my supportive husband. But I'm excited and ready! :)

 

 

Pain...passing...process

It seems as though I'm having a harder time than I thought I would about losing my grandmother. No one knows how they will feel when someone they love passes away. I consider myself a pretty strong person. But dealing with death is new for me. The only other person that I've lost super close to me was Nana two years ago. But now, this is my grandmother. My grandmother that was WAY to young to die. Only two weeks before she died she was holding my son and smiling.

I know this pain will soon pass and only happy thoughts will come up when I think about my grandmother. But right now there is a lot of sadness.

(this little girl missed us while we were gone this past weekend)

I'm praying a lot about all of this and trying to stay as happy as I can. I'm trying to rely on God to help me with this process.

Enjoying the life around me I think is a really good way to move forward too.

Holding and loving this little boy even tighter in the past few days has really helped.

I miss my grandmother so much. But I do have all the wonderful memeories in my heart forever.